Friday Confessions!

I'm so mad at myself.

It's Friday so that means it's suppose to be Foodie Friday.

I have a recipe and pictures but it's on my home computer!

Sorry guys!

So instead today I thought I'd do a confessional!

BTW
Happy Friday!!

I.love.the.weekends.

<3



I CONFESS: that my itouch is still on Hawaii time. So everytime I turn it on I know what time it is there and I picture what I'd be doing.

I CONFESS: I might be hiding something from you lovelies...it  might start with a "B" and it might rhymes with toy...

Hopefully you can put two and two together...

I CONFESS: that I am ready for my two weeks to be over so I can start my new job. One week down, one to go!!

I CONFESS: that I am ready for the fall/winter! I'm ready for football and sweathers/scarves and hot chocolate and cuddling with lots of blankets and soup and holidays and my birthday and family gatherings and pretty much everything fall/winter related! Maybe snow...I also confess that I haven't really seen real snow!

 

I CONFESS: that I really really appreciate the support I've been getting about changing my job. There are a few people who aren't excited about my decision but for those of you {irl and on here} who have given me encouragement and support I thank you so much! You helped me make this decision! :))
Hugs!

I CONFESS: I want my own place. No explanation needed.

I CONFESS: I've been smiling a lot lately.

Even through all the stress...

 smiles!

Lovelies, have a great weekend! :)

Song of the day--

Off We Go--Trent Dabbs!

{had it on repeat on my way to work}

{I promise I listen to music besides Trent Dabbs and Augustana but they are oh so good!}

Na na na na na na na na na na...backpain!

I woke up yesterday with cray-zey back pain.

However readers, this is normal for me.

Combined with my big knockers {I'm not trying to be cocky, but they are big and I hate them!} old whiplash injury, and my sucky-sucky mattress I tend to wake up in pain pretty frequently.

And yet, I have never been to a chiropractor.

I guess I'm a masochist. 

But yesterday and today I woke up in worse pain than usual. Like wake-up in the middle of the night because it's so uncomfortable!
I don't know if it's a whiplash flare-up.
Or because I started working out again.
Or because my body's slowly turning on me!
But holy moly I'm popping Tylenol Rapid Release like they're tic-tacs!

Side note: I was in a car accident about three years ago and I got whiplash. My smartass decided not to go to the doctor for it and just treat it with Tylenol PM. Well when you don't get "proper" treatment for whiplash it can cause permanent damage and give you flare-ups from time to time. Sweet!

I'm suppose to go dancing tonight!
So Tylenol and I will be best friends today!





In other random news, my credit card extending my limit today.
This scares me.
Why is the bank encouraging me to spend more!?!?!
Bad bank!


Also I think my boss is coping with my two weeks notice by giving me extremely random busy work to do.
He asked me to make billing memos today...in my six months here I have never been in charge of getting the billing memos ready for projects. So naturally after putting in my two week's notice I should learn how to do this?!?!  Earlier this week he literally sent me an email just so I could essentially forward it to someone else...umm shot in the dark here maybe you could have just sent it to them yourself and cut out the middle man. Just a suggestion. :)


Have a great Thurday lovelies!!
I'm off to "do" work!


Song of the day--
Copperhead Road--Steve Earle

{I will be dancing to this later tonight :)))}

What's another word for random...spontaneous. Spontaneous Wednesday!

Doesn't that sound more exciting than saying this post is going to be random?

Lots of spontaneity coming at you!

I turn 25 in October and I still live at home.

{Yes I can hear you laughing, that's not nice}

And while I love my parents it's hard to feel completely like an adult/independent living at home.

I have a real job and I pay my own bills, I just haven't made enough to live on my own.

It's hard having to check it sometimes and constantly keeping tabs with them.

I do it gladly because I know it's important to them, that while I live at home to be conscientious.

But sometimes, ok a lot of the time, I feel like I'm still a teenager in their eyes.

And it's hard to go to work and be a professional and then go home and feel like a kid.

Here's hoping my new job gives me the income to move out!

:)

_______

Some friends and I are going to Wild West tomorrow night and there will probably be a post just about that! { I mean every trip is an EXPERIENCE}

I'm really excited because I think we have a great group going!!

I have a dress and boots picked out already.

I know, I'm a dork!

But.

I'm excited!

________

Today is my brother's birthday!!

I don't think he reads this but if you do bubby, Happy Birthday!!

I love you!

_________

Speaking of my bubby, he and my SIL are coming in town this weekend!

Super excited for that!

I have so much fun with them, especially Heidi!

Aren't they cute??!? I totally took this picture!

Yes, they're in a foam pit!

Oh and this is what Heidi and I do when we get together!

________

I have worked out three times this week already!

I'm FINALLY getting back to the gym.

I was starting to get a little fluffy.

AKA I was wrestling with my jeans to get them on.

Stupid jeans.

But I am crazy motivated to get back into shape!

__________

This literally just happened.

My co-workers son {maybe 5 yrs old} was standing outside my office and called me beautiful.

Made my day!

Little cutie patootie!

__________

Ok so calling it spontaneous didn't make it interesting...

kinda boring actually.

But that's all I got for you!

Have a wonderful Wednesday lovelies!

Song of the day--

Augustana album

I know, I know but it's pretty much all I've been listening to lately!

Done and done!

I did it.

I put my two weeks in.

:))))))))

HUGE sigh of relief! I am one step {really two weeks} closer to being back in nutrition!

People don't mess around when it comes to office gossip.

I told my boss yesterday at 2:30pm.

The CEO keeps asking me for input to make my position better in the future.

The receptionist asked me why I didn't tell her.

And the editing boys are taking me to lunch to 'celebrate!'

I think they're jealous I'm getting out!

The real question is...

what am I suppose to do with all my business cards???

Recycle them?

Eh, regardless I am ridiculously excited!

As should you readers because no more incessant complaining about my job!

Win-win!

Virtual toast! Since it's only 10:00am, let's toast with a mimosa or bloody mary!

I guess since it's virtual you can really toast with whatever you like.

Anyway, clink!

I finally finished uploading pictures from Hawaii so instead of taking three or four posts to write about it, I'll just overload you with pictures!

Enjoy!!!

Our resort

I made a new friend!

These flowers were only $5.00



Dolphins!

Heidi and me under Secret Falls

View from our condo on Oahu!

Me, my SIL, and sister!

We buried Adrian!

Made friends with a band and then proceeding to crash a high school reunion! Class of 1969!

We saw where Jurasssic Park was filmed!

Just some highlights from my trip!!!

Song of the day--

Brooklyn--Wakey!Wakey!

I'm a pansy...

I usually hate Mondays but today is slightly different.

Remember when I said I had BIG news??!?
Today I am putting my two weeks in at my current job!!!!
No more complaining over here!
I got my old job back in nutrition and I can't wait to start!!
The only thing in my way is the very 'grown-up' conversation I have to have with my boss.
I am avoiding it at.all.cost.
I don't do well in these situations at all.

I
am
a
 pansy.

My overall concern with the conversation is
1. I will probably cry {I mean really it's unavoidable, seriously I hate that I am such an easy crier}
and
2. I hate disappointing people.

I have to keep focused on the outcome:
I will be happier once I leave this job!!

My beautiful best friend Stacy, is taking me to lunch today to celebrate and get me drunk to make the conversation easier. {I'm totally kidding about getting drunk but I won't pretend I didn't seriously think about it!!}
I'm still trying to figure out a way for her to be there with me when I do it. You know, to hold my hand.
Because I'm a pansy.
So far I got nothing.


Who could get mad at these girls??? ^ {I never realized how close her tongue was to my eye, totally freaks me out!}
Answer: my boss. He would probably have security escort us from the premises. Oh and we don't even have security. He would hire someone for the hour. Do they have those?? Rent -a-cops by the hour?? Sounds sketch if they did.

Ok, so I am probably making this a MUCH bigger deal than necessary but I really really don't want to do it.
But I will.
At the end of the day.


But don't let my pansy-ness distract from the fact that I am really excited about going back into nutrition!
I even think about going to grad school one day for it!


Ok lovelies, wish me luck!!
You know I will post about how it went!
Have a great Monday :)
xoxo



Song(s) of the day--
Can't stop listening to Augustana and Trent Dabbs today, I think it's keeping me calm haha.

Caution!!! Debbie Downer post coming your way!!!

Seriously.

If you're in a good mood, turn back now.

I need to {semi} vent and I don't want to ruin your good moods.

I am temporarily letting the stress win.

 I am waving a white flag and surrendering. 

I have reached my quota of stress for the week.

All I want to do is crawl back in bed and sleep till everything is better.

I.am.defeated.

Stress you win.

I had good news this week.

And I finally saw Harry Potter!

But the stress and everything else took center stage.

I am so physically/emotionally exhausted from this week.

I'll be better tomorrow.
I have something semi-exciting to do tomorrow.

And then it's the weekend.

:)

{even in my debbie downer post I still smiled}

But right now I am going to go to lunch, get a starbucks and pray I make it through the day without crying.

One of my least favorite traits is that I'm an easy-crier. It just happens. Any strong emotion comes out of my eyes. It's really annoying.

So I pray I don't cry at work today.

My co-workers better be nice to me!

After work I will shower and go to bed.

And cuddle with Lucy!

If you made it through the whole post, please don't hate me.

We all have days like this!

Thanks for reading. I'll be bright and shiny tomorrow.

Promise!

tattoo help :)

So I've been itchy to get another tattoo for awhile now but I need some help.

I know I want it a feather/birds theme.

{yes it has special meaning to me}

But I don't know if I want color or to stick with black and white.

My other two are black and white and I love them.

Color fades and I would have to keep up with it.

But color looks really pretty at the same time.

So I ask you blog friends...

Black and white OR color??

{and these are similar to the design I want}

I like how open this one is too.

OR

What do you think???

WILW

I'm Linking up with Jamie from 'this kind of love'
for...



Happy Wednesday everyone!
I went to bed at 9:30 last night!
Hollar! {yes i left the 'r' on because that's how I say it!!}
A true sign that I am getting feeling older!

Let's get on with it, shall we!

{1}
I'm loving--the Starbucks I treated myself too this morning. Mmmmm!
Caramel-ly goodness :))



{2}
I'm loving--that my Lucy is 100% healthy! I feel like I can finally breathe after 7 months of constant worrying! I seriously fed her 10lbs worth of treats yesterday. Everytime she walked up to me I was like "yay, you're healthy, have a treat."

{3}
I'm loving--that it looked like it was going to rain this morning. I love me some thunderstorms!! :)

It's just been so hot lately, Texas needs a cool front!

{4}
I'm loving--that  football season is right around the corner! I can.not.wait. for football season! I am determined to go to a UT game this year!! And I know I will be in Dallas for Texas/OU weekend!!
So flippin' excited!! And I can't wait for the Texans to beat the Cowboys this year! Yeah I said it! Cowboys you're going down! :)
{Stacy don't hate me}





{5}
Lastly I'm loving--my Ann Taylor Loft cardigan I'm wearing today. It's super comfy and cute!!




Alright lovlies have a good day :)

Song of the day--
Just Breathe--Pearl Jam

B-I-G news!!!

Ahh but I still can't tell you!

Please don't hate me!

I am busting at the seams because I want to tell you but I just can't. Yet!

In other news:

I took Lucy to the vet this morning and she is officially heartworm negative!!

Quick background.

I adopted Lucy almost two years ago and soon found out that she was heartworm positive.

:(

After a long treatment and an even longer time of trying to keep her inactive {she seriously wasn't allowed to play, go outside unless on a leash, get excited, etc. for two months. She was still a freaking puppy!}

she is finally heartworm free!!!

My little baby is all better!

Have a good Tuesday lovelies!!!
:))

Peter Pan had the right idea!!

Why did no one tell us how hard it was going to be being an adult??

Or did they tell me and I was too blissfully unaware to listen??
Either way I feel under prepared.
I long for the days when my biggest worry was if I was going to get math homework!
Now it's hoping that I make enough money to get by.
Or am I making the right choice career wise.
Or hoping wanting to fix family and friends' problems.
Worrying about things like credit and insurance and taxes.
Yuck!
Those aren't fun.

Peter pan was smart.
If there was a never never land I'd be first in line to get a ticket or pixie dust!


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Now don't get me wrong.
There are a ton of perks for being an adult.
And would I really want to be a kid again, probably not.
But I miss being carefree with no real worries!
So really I'd like to vacay in never land!
For a few days  weeks!
Who wants to come???



I feel like everything in my life right now is a giant question mark.

Just sitting there waiting for me to figure everything out.

Blah!

If you couldn't tell I have a serious case of the Mondays today, with a shot of pessimism.

I should be back to normal tomorrow.

Haha!

Two more hours till I can get off work, go run my errands, {help} cook dinner, and RELAX!!

 

Oh and tomorrow is a big day!!

Can't talk about it yet, but I will when I have something concrete to tell you :))

 

What do you miss the most about being a kid??

 

 

Song of the day--

Lazy Song--Bruno Mars

Currently....

I love doing this post because when I can't think of anything to write about {coughliketodaycough} it's a good filler!

And I know how much you guys like learning random facts about me!

JK!

Let's get on with it!

{Current Book}

The Shack-WM Paul Young

A coworker recommended it to me. So far, so good!

{Current Playlist}

Counting Stars--Augustana

The Show Goes On--Lupe Fiasco

Good Life--OneRepublic

Off We Go--Trent Dabbs  {a permanent fixture on any of my playlists}

Kings and Queens--30 Seconds to Mars

{Current Color}
I have a lot of green on today.

{Current Drink}
Water :)

{Current Food}
I have a banana and a string cheese for a snack

{Current Favorite Show}
All my shows are re-runs right now.
I've been watching Chopped on the Food Network lately!
I love cooking shows in general!

{Current Wishlist}
A bookshelf for my room
An old-school polaroid camera
A nook
New jeans and shoes

{Current Needs}
Financial Security!
I need Lucy's final heartworm test on Saturday to come back negative!!

{Current Triumphs}
Finally doing something about the job situation. News to come later about that!

{Current Banes of my Existence}
Stupid Drivers
Bills
The weather!!! It's soooooo hot!

{Current Celeb Crushes}
Cory Monteith {Glee} <--don't judge!
Ryan Gosling!! Did you see him in the Crazy Stupid Love trailer oh me gee!!
John Krasinski, how can you not love Jim??

{Current Blessing}
My friends and family!
Duh!

{Current Indulgences}
hmmm I feel like I don't have any right now!
Geez louise!
I'm about to take my credit card {don't tell my parents} and get a mani-pedi!
That will be my indulgence!

{Current Outfit}
Jeans
Green and pink razor back
Green cardigan
Cream flats
Light brown belt

{Current Excitement}
The weekend!

{Current Mood}
Considerably upbeat!!

Nike says "Just do it"

I need to stop dragging my feet and go to the doctor.

I need to listen to my body and it's telling me I shouldn't be this tired all the time.

Sleep 7-8 hours a night-check

Eat healthy-check

Work out-...(guilty face) I've been slacking lately, due to me being so tired.

Drink water-check

Despite all that I am ALWAYS tired. All day, everyday lately.

Many times during the day I get this overwhelming feeling of needing to fall asleep.

I've mentioned before that I suspect I have a B-12 deficiency.

Besides being tired, I seem to have other symptoms of this.

Tired

Frequent heart palpitations, rapid heart rate

Anemia

Random dizzy spells

Migraines

Insomnia

Tingling sensation in my hands and face.

I need to go to the doctor and get my blood tested.

B-12 deficiency isn't serious but I would feel better if I could fix it.

Another reason to get it over with is to rule out that it could be a serious ailment.

{yes my mind goes there}

Mainly I need to go because I need to take care of myself.

And I don't feel like myself.

I usually crave workouts and activity and going out with friends.

Now at 10:00am my thoughts are consumed with getting home and going to bed.

Seriously right now I'm thinking about the fact that in an hour and a half I could be taking a nap at home.

So this week I am going to make my doctor's appointment and see what's up.

I will of course update you when I know something.

Song of the day--

Televators--Mars Volta

Sweatpants here I come!

As soon as my clock says 5:30 I.am.gone!

Today has been hellish.

You know what's worse than having a job you really don't like??

Being really busy at a job you don't like working on an insane project!

Say hello to extra stress I don't need!

Deep breath in, deep breath out!

I just want my sweatpants, leftover Olive Garden, and my bed!

It's one of those days when you want to hit something {or someone} or scream or run away and create a false identity so they can never find you again. Too much???

Did I mention it's been a crappy day?

 Sorry readers I don't mean to be unloading about my job all the time.

Venting on here helps!

But I will be making decisions soon so you won't have to hear read my bitching anymore!

:)

Random subject change coming at you now!

I am currently snacking on an awesome and HEALTHY homemade trail mix!

Here's the breakdown for you:

pumpkin seeds

cashews

walnuts

almonds

dried blueberries

sunflower seeds

chocolate nibs

Mix all together and enjoys!

It's a good energy booster in the middle of the day!

And shout out to Stacy--

she went to lunch with me today and heard me vent about work too!

:)

Song of the day--

Sing--My Chemical Romance

zumba--fail

I can now say that I attempted zumba.

I can cross that off my list.

Not very successfully, but still.

I finished the class. Small victories.

I think I am the only girl to never take any kind of dance class ever.

And now it is very obvious.

I am so uncoordinated.

There were women of all ages in this class.

Ok let me rephrase-me, my sister, and Stacy were the youngest people in there by at least 20 years.

Initially I thought that being young would be to my advantage.

"Clearly I will be better than these older ladies."

This was not the case.

At.All.

The g-mas were zumba-ing circles around me.

I looked like a fish out of water. 

It was a great workout.

But my self-esteem was g-o-n-e by the end of the class.

I have not decided if I will go back. I might have to stick with weights and cardio like normal people!

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I do NOT look like that ^

I looked like this ^

Has anyone else done Zumba??

What workouts do you do??

Foodie Friday

Foodie Friday!!

And I have pictures!

Ok so I made this back for Easter but I never posted about it.

On my "Me List" {which I need to update} I wanted to learn to make my mom's Deviled Eggs.

Well I did!

And I have pictures and recipe below!!

They look so good, I might need to make some more!

I may or may not have googled 'how to hard-boil eggs'



Recipe {more or less}
I hard-boiled 12 eggs, then I peeled them, cut them in half and took out the yolks.
In a mixing bowl combine the yolks, mayo, mustard, relish, Nature's Season, salt, and pepper.
According to my mom there aren't measurements.
You kinda just throw everything into a bowl and guesstimate the amount.
Once you are done mixing everything, spoon the mixture into the eggs and then top with paprika!
Then proceed to eat like 8 of them like I did for Easter.
Ok it wasn't 8....it was 6.

There you have it fellow foodies my mom's deviled eggs!


Happy Friday and have a great weekend!

Song of the day--
No Love--Eminem
**totally for Stacy--we def rocked out to this last night on our way home from happy hour!

Thursday Truths

So I'm going to try something new here.

It's kinda like Friday Confessionals but a teensy less funny?!?



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Truth #1-- I'm unhappy with my job. I count down the hours every.single.day. till I can leave. It's not what I expected and I partly feel like I would be giving up if I quit. In addition to that I don't know what I want to do. I'm certified to teach 4th-8th grade and I also have a huge interest in nutrition.

But I can't make up my mind. So until I can I'm stuck in a job I really dread doing.
And I feel guilty because I am writing this post at work. Clearly I will not be employee of the month.

Truth #2--I regret one of my tattoos. I desperately want to cover it up but I can't for two reasons. One, I need money. Surprise surprise. Two, I need to figure out what to cover it up with! I have a few ideas but I obviously want to make sure I won't regret this one too. My favorite idea right now is a feather and I do have sentimental reasons for this idea but again I need to really really make sure it's what I want.

Truth #3--I feel really overwhelmed with my current financial situation. Long story short, my salary sucks and my bills sucks worse. I've been on a pretty tight budget but I can always cut back more. I want to get out of debt and start saving more so I can move. I think the solution to speed this up is to start bartending again a couple nights a week. The thought of having a second job right now immediately makes me feel exhausted. I can do it no problem but I have to be ok with the fact that I may have no personal life for awhile and I will be even more exhausted than usual. But my priority is moving away from Houston so I will make that happen.

Truth #4--I want to write a book. This seems absolutely insane to me. But I am so in love with this idea. So much so that I have been thinking about what I could even write about.  And yes I have ideas, decent ideas! {well I think they're decent} So we will see where this goes. Hopefully somewhere good!



Tell me some truths :)
And if all these things seem absurd...lie to me and say they aren't!
{my ego can't take it}
:))


Song of the day--
Secrets--OneRepublic

what the what??!

Casey Anthoney was acquitted??!?!??!
What the what??!?!
My faith in the justice system is severely damaged.

I was reading article after article on cnn.com and they said that the defense failed to show enough evidence.

Even if that is true, charge her with something!

Craziness.

In other {not so serious} news:

I need my nails done like whoa!

It's borderline embarassing.

Actually it is embarassing!

Getting my nails done is like my one spurlge.

I don't color my hair and I don't get massages and I don't use expensive makeup/beauty products.

I live on a pretty tight budget.

But my nails, oh my nails, I do get them done once a month.

Since Hawaii my wallet is hurting and therefore some things have to wait a couple of paychecks.

Like my nails.

It's such a sad story I know.

Hmmm what else?? What else??

Stacy and I are going to the movies tonight.

Any suggestions?

Can you believe I haven't seen the Hangover 2 yet?

I miss going to the movies. I miss having a boy to go to the movies with.

It's one of those comfortable dates. Hand-holding and relaxing with them.

**Sigh**

There's an old-fashioned drive-in just outside of Dallas I really want to go to.

So basically 'what the what' not only describes my reaction to the Casey Anthoney trial but also your reaction to this really really random blog.

:)

Song of the day--

Somewhere Only We Know--Keane

I have a migrane {boo} and new followers {yay}

I am currently at work losing a battle with a migrane.

Sad day.

I am probably going to have to go home and lock myself in a dark room for the rest of the day.

But despite my headache I wanted to blog quickly and say Hi to my new followers!!

Hi guys!!

I am so flippin excited!

Welcome!

Anyway I had a great long weekend.

Fireworks are some of my favorite things!

I hope y'all did too!

PS I showed my bestie the comments I got from the blog I wrote for her on Friday. She loved them! And now she wants to write a blog too! I am strongly encouraging this!

I'm 5'3" and you don't wanna mess with me!

I'd like to write an amendment to me not be confrontational!

It will go something like this...

"Boy who broke my best friend's heart by lying and cheating and by being an over d-bag, I will kick your ass! And I don't care that you are a giant compared to me...I am someone you don't want to mess with now!"


Ok so I won't break your face because I'm not violent but I will talk loudly at you!

He lied.

He cheated.

He d-bagged.

He lied some more.

I am not happy.

{And it doesn't help that this guy is eerily similar to my ex.}

My friend is an amazing person with one of the biggest hearts and it kills me that someone could treat her like this.
I've been lied to and cheated on, it feels like your world is crashing around you. It builds insecurities and unfortunately you will carry it with you to future relationships.
And I hate that it happens to people all the time.
You know who you are bestie and I love you and you deserve so so so much better and I know you will find it someday! :)

But moral of the story, you mess with me I probably won't do anything but you mess with any of my besties and you have a world of hurt coming your way.

Song of the day--
F*** You--Cee Lo Green