I get stressed easily and lately I've been letting the stress win.
My lost optimism was found today!
I had a great day at work. {it even included a shoot}
I found a new blog to read.
I'm going to the movies with my Stacyface tonight!
And my overall outlook for the future feels good.
Welcome back optimism, it was weird without you!
{seriously I'm the girl that will continuing cheering for her losing team until it says "final" next to the score...and my team is the Texans so we all know how often I cheer on a losing team. Love you Texans!}
I think I am going to make a judgement call and change the topic.
(and just for the record there isn't anyone I need to forgive)
HMMM
So I need a truth to tell you guys.
HMMM
So with the help of Google I think I came up with a "fun" truth to tell.
What are your favorite smells?
My grandma Carrie passed away when I was 13. I have a box of some of her things (scarf, necklaces, etc.).I have what I think is an old pill case of hers but she kept perfume in it. It's been more than ten years and it still smells like her. It's one of my favorite things I have. And it brings back so so many memories I had with her.
I love the smell right before it rains. And of course the smell of rain.
The laundry isle at the grocery store.
My dad's office building.
When someone is cooking with truffle oil or garlic!
This is harder than the what I hate about myself question.
I like that I'm not confrontational.
The reason I picked this is because there used to be a time when I avoided it at all costs even if that meant I got hurt in the process.
I have refined this trait. I have a line that if crossed I will stand up for myself.
That being said it takes a lot for someone to cross that line.
I have learned throughout the years there are things worth fighting for and things that aren't.
I look back on arguements I've had with friends, family, exes, etc and the majority are over stupid, petty things that don't merit an argument.
I'm also I big believer in just being honest and talking, not arguing, over things.
This also means being the bigger person sometimes and letting things roll off your back.
I don't have thick skin.
Words hurt.
But if it's not worth the fight I'll deal with it.
I don't think I let people walk all over me at all.
I have stood up for myself when the time called for it.
I just think some things aren't worth a fight.
**This also goes hand-in-hand with being really understanding that people are human and they are bound to make mistakes and forgiving them in their worst hour speaks volumes of your character.
I know that I have made mistakes and the willingness of people to forgive me is a beautiful trait to have.
It's not always easy but if a friendship or any kind of relationship means something forgiveness is a good thing to be able to do.
(wow, that was kind of heavy)
So you wanna know the Hawaii countdown?? I know you do!
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself. Day 02 →→ Something you love about yourself. Day 03 →→ Something you have to forgive yourself for. Day 04 →→ Something you have to forgive someone for. Day 05 →→ Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do
Day 07→→ Someone who has made your life worth living for. Day 08 →→ Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 →→ Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know. Day 11→→ Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12→→ Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 →→ A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → →A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 →→ Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 →→ A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18→→ Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19→→ What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20→→ Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21→→ (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → →Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23→→ Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 →→ Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25→→ The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 →→ Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28→→ What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 →→ Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30→→ A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
I have to say that since graduating college I have become more comfortable in my skin and more confident with who I am. So I wouldn't say I hate anything about myself but there are some things I could work on.
Appearance--I want to be more consistent with my workouts. I've been a little lazy lately. And sometimes I think my nose is pointy.
(but really who doesn't have issues with their nose!)
Personality--I want to be less indecisive. I tend to be a people pleaser. I want to let go of some of the insecurities I do have. Mostly I want to let go of the not feeling good enough sometimes. Unfortnately this is a souvenir of be cheated on in past relationships.
Habits--I want to stop biting my nails, not have so much road rage, and cut out the cursing!
Ok guys! Join in! Comment away!
Ok really..don't leave me hanging! No one likes to talk about what they don't like about themselves and then here crickets! ha!
Song of the day--part two
Arms--Christina Perri!
*just found this song this weekend! loves it!
Can I do a post on scenes from the weekend if I don't have scenes to show you? I am seriously getting lazy with my camera. I take it with me everywhere but it never makes an appearance. Seriously the only pictures I took this weekend was of food and that's because my SIL reminded me to. So I guess I need to rename the post bullets from the weekend...because basically that's what I am going to do.
Drove to Dallas Friday after work! Made it in 4 hrs!
Met up with Maverick for dinner. Originally we were going to go to this pizza place that sounded really good but the wait was long so we left and got some Mexican food (which is always good!) So at the pizza place Maverick valeted his car, upon hearing the wait time I said I was really hungry so we left and the valet people weren't even done parking it yet...I felt horrible!
After dinner we went and watched a movie and since it was Friday the 13th we watched Seven. Great movie!
Saturday Maverick and my brother played golf while my SIL and I worked out. We walked by the prettiest lake ever! And the weather was perfect! No humidity!
SIL and I got brunch! And we didn't just eat...we destroyed brunch! We both got brunch and afterwards we still hungry so we ordered an appetizer! Oh and we drank a pitcher of white sangria!
SIL and I then went shopping and found some cute things and then we got a Starbucks!
Met back up with the boys for dinner at an AWESOME Italian restaurant! Their garlic rolls were fan-freaking-tastic!
Maverick and I met up with some of his friends at a dueling piano bar. My first time going to one. It was really fun!
Sunday I wasn't feeling that great (understatement of the century!). We were orginally going to do brunch but we missed it. I think that was my first time in Dallas without getting brunch!
Went to Jakes with Maverick for a burger after I was feeling better!
Then I had to leave :( drive back only took 3 and half hours this time.
Overall it was a great weekend! Shout out to Maverick, brother, and SIL for making it a great weekend! Thanks guys!
This Houston girl will admit that Dallas is growing on me! :))
I'll give credit where credit is due.
Their weather is hands down better than Houston's.
BUT the Cowboys are in Dallas...and I don't like the Cowboys. (another huge understatement)
I really needed this weekend to help take my mind off some stuff that's going on. It really helped. I think this was the first time I was able to fully relax in a month! Hopefully I will be able to relax in Hawaii too!
I'm just ready for situations to get resolved. I've been emotionally exhausted for a month and I'm tired of carring this weight around esp when I can 't really talk about it...
I get a rush of excitement every Friday morning because I know the weekend is only a few short hours away!
It reminds me of how Lucy gets when she greets me when I get home after work! She acts like I was gone for days and it was really only hours {or in some cases minutes}. But she is always so so excited!
{**speaking of Lucy she totally killed a mouse yesterday. gross.}
That's me and Fridays!
It's been days since we hung out Friday, let's do it again!
I am leaving in about an hour to drive to Dallas :)
{I'm not really excited about the drive but the trip very much so}
I do have my itouch and Special K Crackers {they are delish! esp if you're watching your weight} for my ride up there! Hopefully there won't be any Houston traffic and I can get there fairly quick.
It's going to be a pretty chill weekend but none-the-less I am excited.
I need to get away for a couple of days and relax!
1. This song nails how I've been feeling lately (in certain situations) and
2. I really wish I knew how to sing so I could Kelly Clarkson the shit out of this song!
Do you ever feel like that?
I sing. In the car. By myself.
I don't sing in public.
And I am positive it would take copious amounts of alcohol for me to even try.
But sometimes I really wish I could sing.
I don't think my voice is terrible but I also don't think people want me to sing.
Haha!
Stacy and I have talked about doing karaoke before.
It's never happened.
There are two scenarios I imagine would happen if I ever karaoke---
1. I nail it and everybody is like "I didn't know you could sing like that! Sing again! It was amazing!! Oh and I know an agent, here's his card!"
or
2. (and the more likely reaction) Someone takes the microphone away from me mid song and kicks me out of the bar because I made paying customers leave because my voice was so bad.
Every time I even consider the possibility of karaoke I play out these two scenarios in my head.
And the overwhelming fear I have the second one would in fact happen kills any thought I had about trying!
I'm really starting to get into this blogging world! It's kinda like breaking in new shoes, you really like them but you got to walk around in them and make them your own aka smelly and comfortable! :)
Consider my blog smelly and comfortable! I hit a pinnacle this week.... over 1,000 views!
And now I have to start my day with coffee and blogs! I. AM. ADDICTED.
I decided that I will need a blog makeover pretty soon, so if any of you readers know of a good blog...artist (i don't think this term is correct but some of the blogs I read are beautiful so artist fits) please let me know!
So I'm going to cheese it up for a second and say thank you to all my readers/commenters! I really appreciate it :)) **now if you are reading this and you read but you aren't following....follow me please :)))))
I am loving a lot this Wednesday so let's get it on!
{1} Remember this post? Well I am loving that I am FINALLY getting away this weekend! I'm going to Dallas on Friday to see Maverick and my brother and SIL! Color me excited!
{2} I am loving that I get to leave work at noon tomorrow!!! I have an awards ceremony to go to for work and I have to help set it up. I won't lie I am more excited about leaving work early than I am about the ceremony but hopefully it should be fun! Wanna know who my date is??!?! My lovely mom!
{3} I am loving that I am getting my nails done after work! You have no idea! Hi my name is Ashley and I'm a nail biter. I always have been and since graduating college I've always had my fake nails! Well the bills got the better of my wallet last month so nails had to go. But today they are making their long-awaited return!
{4} I am loving that I bought the tote bag from Land's End. It should be here any day now. Preferably before Friday so I can take it to Dallas. I even got it monogrammed!
{5} I am loving Augustana's new self titled album!
It might be me but some of the songs remind me of Bruce Springsteen.
(hmm I wonder what my song of the day will be)
{6}
I am always loving my Lucy!
** i am NOT loving my allergies. i have never had allergies until apparently a month ago
Being in the "8-5 work world" for almost three months now I am really starting to appreciate (huge understatement) the weekends! When I was working hourly I would always just have two random days off during the week. I love having a consistent schedule and I love Fridays and Saturdays like no other!
i want to be on a beach with a pina colado and my ipod...
perfection :)
I'm in a weird mood today. I'm sad.
While I want to be honest and open with you readers there are some personal issues I can't talk about.
These personal issues are making me sad. Conversations need to be had and situations need to be resolved and forgiveness needs to take place. But most of all I want to understand why all this is happening.
Enough of that, after all it is the weekend and the weekends should be joyous occassions. I'll leave the sad stories for Mondays.
Yesterday was Cinco de Mayo and I spent it with the lovely Stacy! We got dinner and had a few drinks! And took silly pictures at the bar. We are both fans of making the platapus face! Don't hate me readers but I forgot to upload said images so you have to use your imagination! They will be posted though! Eventually!
Just Kidding!!! Maverick from Top Gun is Tom Cruise and well that's reason enough not to date him!
But I did go on a date!
And my date requested some mystery! (he's not ready for the blogging world)
And he requested I refer to him as Maverick!
So begins my date with Maverick :))
I met Maverick, oh, about a month ago when I was in Dallas. Mav (is it weird that I give a nickname a nickname??) is cute (his smile is ridiculous) funny, easy to talk to, and he's tall ;)! Before I left Dallas that weekend Maverick let me know that he was going to be in Houston in the next couple of weeks and wanted to know if I wanted to hang out. Obviously I said yes!
Fast forward to last weekend! (btw we had been texting/talking pretty much the whole time in between)
Maverick was in Houston and it was date time. Holy excitement Batman!
I was nervous to say the least. Awkward situations follow me around like a lost puppy and I didn't want any part of the date to be awkward. I was also nervous because I planned most of the date since Maverick isn't from Houston. NO pressure whatsoever!
I decided on sushi and a bar (classy I know) Sushi was delcious! (BTW it is kinda difficult to eat sushi and look cute at the same time!) The restaurant was great! The 'banter' (am I too young to use this word??) was awesome! Date so far was going well! Did I mention how cute he looked??
On to activity two! The bar! The reason I picked a bar is because it had pool and it was a fun, easy going activity we could do! Needless to say we didn't play pool but the option was there the whole night! I was also nervous about the bar because one of my best guy friends was going to be there and he's a little protective. I had no idea what I was walking Maverick into! He was a good sport and I gave him plenty of notice in case he choose to do something else. It too went flawlessly (except when I knock over a bar stool..oops!) The guy friend gave Maverick a thumbs up in record time! I was RELIEVED!
The date went really really well! I already have a trip planned to Dallas in a couple of weeks! And this time I don't have to plan anything, yay!
That Sunday before he left Maverick and I had another day date! (well that's what I'm going to call it) We had lunch at Yard House! He tried my Mac and Cheese squared and the truffle fries. I think he is officially hooked on truffle oil! We hit up Starbucks and then saw Scream 4 (cray-zeeee ending peoples, overall it was ok though) Then he had to go, insert sad face!
The entire weekend was awesome! I had a great time and I can't wait to see him again! :)))
You should all be jealous of my date with Maverick! Especially because he's wayyy cooler than Tom Cruise! And cuterr!
Song of the day-----
Existentialism on Prom Night----Straylight Run
When I was in middle school and high school I used to write screen plays. True story. One was about a guardian angel who fell in love with a human. And the other one was about the Loch Ness Monster. I'm Scottish.
I wore a hoodie and jeans to work today and I am by no means considered undressed.
When I was little I wanted to have two girls and name them after characters from Baywatch.
If I could afford to buy copious amounts of truffle oil I would cook with it everyday!
I am currently listening to Dog Days Are Over-Florence+The Machine on repeat!
If I had to live in another state I would live in Colorado. It's one of the prettiest places I've been!
I have nerve damage on my ring finger on my left hand. It happened when I was baretending and I was cleaning a wine glass and it broke and the stem of the glass when through my finger!
I love scary movies! The SAWs series are a favorite! And the Exorcist! (mainly because me and Kendra watched it together in our dorm room, both of us in my bed, with the lights on, because we "heard" a noise!!)
Now it's time for a nap!
I think it's obvious that my song of the day is.....(insert drumroll) Dog Days Are Over--Florence + the Machine!
<-- yes this is a cave we drove our boat into!
